Three Little Engines: Decision

So sorry I haven't been able to keep up on this. It's been a particularly rough time.

Lincoln has really expensive dental work that pushed out my being able to get in to the Dr, again. While Jace has been spiraling again as well. And I've been so concerned for family and friends going through their own rough times.

I've even wondered why on earth I'm doing this blog- I don't have any eloquent or awesome things to say, I'm too exhausted to even walk straight, let alone think straight enough to express the things from my heart.

But I guess that's the problem with paying attention to what others are doing and comparing myself to them.

My reason for this blog is to keep my family and close friends up to speed if they chose, and as a journal. There was not another intent in the beginning and that has not changed.

Priorities in limited time.

I should not feel guilty or inferior for taking the time I need to take care of my family. And Lincoln should not feel guilty or inferior for taking the time to earn a necessary income and spend his other time being the dad his boys desperately need. Our boys' needs are very different from the average family, and even other families with one disabled child.

I don't even know anyone in our situation of having all three children with major special needs, so why do I compare myself?!

I do it, because others point out the differences in what/how I do and say... they've obviously done comparing of their own.

So I'm officially deciding to delete such comparing from my mind. Because it's destructive, not constructive, and it's wasting valuable energy.

I might need to put this post on my wall to accomplish this.

Now for some cute pics!